Blegh.

found out some terrible news last night, but im not going to get into it. nothing life threateing. pardon the lack of capitolization. for some reason my phone wont let me do it in blogger.           okay, so first updatemy computer is down for the count. hard drive is failing. also imalso have my allergy test on october fifth, so im going to be eating gluten for the next two weeks. awesome.

Sketches and health update.

My allergist appointment is on October 5th. Ate gluten again for the first time today and spent the majority of it suffering hardcore. It's going to be a long two weeks.

Already a great day.

I spent the morning finishing up the timeline for my story and mocking up the first chapter. I'm on a roll with this one, and happy with the basic premise and the flow so far. I'll definitely be doing quite a bit of fine tuning with this one though.

My second high point of the morning was walking into the living room to find out Gears 3 arrived. Everything looks awesome so far, and I'm looking forward to playing it tonight.

The third great thing was I had my doctors appointment with my new GP. She was awesome. She was attentive, respectful of the fact that I've done my research on Celiac, and best of all she listened, and actually considered it as a possibility, and we talked about it for awhile. Actually talked about it. She's referred me to an allergist, and I hope to be making an appointment soon, even though it means eating gluten for two weeks beforehand. That's going to suck, but I feel like I'm finally making progress. None of my other doctors, or for that matter my friends and family have listened to my theories on possibly being Celiac, or having a gluten allergy/intolerance. I'm so happy that I'm finally making headway.

Can't sleep.

Another sleepless night it seems. It's close to eleven and I'm only just beginning to feel wispy tendrils of sleepiness tickling at the corners of my mind. I'm half wondering if I should just stay up for the day and sleep around 8 or 9 sometime. as long as i wake up to take my meds. I'll probably have my boyfriend call me to make sure I'm up. I tried laying down for a bit. I was kind of tired when I did, but then once I was down, and comfortable I was wide awake again. It's odd to have such terrible insomnia after so many days of exhaustion. That's not to say my energy levels are back up though. They're really not. I'm just not really tired.

I spent most of the night writing out a quick summary of a story I plan to start hacking away at. I'm sure whether or not I plan to try to publish it, or if I'll just post it all over the internet, and make it a free to read type of thing. I never really had any ambitions as an author. I just enjoy exercising my creativity in a way that isn't drawing once in awhile. I'm not really sure how to summarize the idea without completely destroying the integrity of it, because no matter how I've tried putting it, I can't seem to convey that its not just a typical vampires, vs werewolf story. Honestly, I was never all that interested in vampires, though I am a werewolf fan. I started off just wanting to write something easy and supernatural. It ended up complex, longer then I expected, and honestly it turned into politics, rioting, martyrdom, and a three way inter-species war. I really don't know how else to explain it. It doesn't sound all that interesting when I put it the way I did. Maybe i"ll just summarize the beginning to get people interested, and let them decide from there. I use the terms vampire and werewolf very loosely by the way. They're hardly even that far off from humans.

Allie and Turner Hardy are sent to claim a debt by their illustrious grand father who runs a large chain of casinos. It turns out their mark is a vampire who has gotten himself in trouble way in over his head, and is willing to do anything to stay out of the spotlight. But in an odd twist the vampire then flips the circumstances when he takes Allie hostage in an attempt to coerce the hardy clan into helping him, or rather fighting his battle for him. Could this be the last straw to break the fragile truce between the two territories?

Quick health update.

So, I self-diagnosed, and then had confirmed a possible urinary tract infection that had spread to my kidneys. This is what I assumed was causing all of my symptoms. (Nausea, bloody urine, body aches, fever, chills extreme fatigue which sounds like a horrible sport, ect.) I've been on antibiotics for a few days now, and all of the classic symptoms of UTI have disappeared. The only issue is that the nausea, and fatigue are still there, though the fatigue has gotten better. Granted, I've only been on the antibiotics for 4 days, and have another 6 to go. I'm hoping I can attribute any current nausea and fatigue to the antibiotics. If it's still going on after I finish them then I suppose it's back to the doctor. At least I have insurance now. My body aches are also persisting. I'm hoping I'm just sleeping wrong. In any case I still don't have the energy to leave the house for long, or even be sitting up for that matter. I have a couple hours of it in me at the most and then I'm just drained. I felt bad because I had to call off seeing a movie with my friend yesterday for her birthday. We ended up coming back to my house and watching tangled instead. It wasn't so bad but it was still annoying. I hate the fact that I have to limit so much of what I can do right now. If this keeps up I don't know how I'm ever going to get a job.

On another note, I've managed to not gluten myself accidentally for a week now. It's been nice to not throw up all the time. I'm still hoping that there's an alternate test they can do for celiac that doesn't involve me eating gluten for two weeks.

Up for some enthralling reading?

I have to admit that over the past few years I haven't been doing as much reading as I like. when I have picked up the odd book I've gone an unusual route (think cyphers, and governmental sabotage,) and have been taking forever to work my way through anything. Recently I've been perusing the writing forums on gaia, and making a few vain attempts to exercise my creativity in a less visual fashion. During my browsing I came across the third installment in a series of novella's that seemed to be getting an unusual amount of attention. I've never been a huge fan of the vampire genre. I've enjoyed the occasional book series, or movie here and there, but it honestly never interested me all that much. I was always more of a werewolf sort of gal. Out of curiosity, and despite expecting the same level of disjointed highschool writing common in the rest of the forum I decided to read a quick exert for no reason other then morbid curiosity. Since the dawn of twilight I'd  taken to avoiding vampire fiction all together, as the sudden rise to popularity produced a lot of romantic swill. Don't get me wrong, i can enjoy a good supernatural romance, but I tend to enjoy it more when the it mirrors more of the reality of how relationships develop, or at least makes the reader work for it.

Despite all of my misgivings, and the nagging notion that I knew better, I gave this series a chance. Although the writing was a bit choppy at first (the series was actually written over the course of a few years, 2009 - ongoing, and it improves dramatically,) The concept was intriguing, the characters were interesting and not completely predictable, and the story itself had a way of pulling me in despite the writer's inexperience. I read the first chapter and I simple had to know what happened next. I just kind of kept reading, even though it totally wasn't my genre. I was hooked.

There will definitely be some ironing out to do once the series is finished. there were a few inconsistencies, but the story was otherwise enthralling enough for me to overlook them. It was an awesome read, and a welcome break from the meaty, intellectual books I've been reading.

You can find the first installment here. Enjoy!

Long day

My long day technically started late last night, or rather I suppose I should say early. I started to get a bit of a migraine around 2 in the morning, and from there it seemed to get worse. I don't know if the extreme nausea was a result of the migraine or due to something else entirely, but I spent most of the night curled up on the floor in the bathroom hoping to throw up and get it over with. I ended up not throwing up as it turns out, and dragged myself back to bed with my boyfriend. I don't think I woke up until 4pm, maybe later. Have you ever woken up completely exhausted? As if you've spent the night running, and your body has turned to jelly? Yeah... I've been having period like cramps periodically, (my period doesn't start at all for the next three weeks,) and a terrible stomach ache. So I attempted to take a bath, and found that the heat was possibly making me even more miserable, and weak.

I eventually slummed my way out of the tub, only to end up on the living room couch where I pretty much stayed the rest of the evening. the one time I did force myself up to eat something I felt winded the entire time, and food caused my stomach to give me sharp pains in protest. My boyfriend actually left work early to come home and make sure I was doing alright, since even the motion of texting felt like a terrible burden. There's nothing quite like laying in one position all day long, feeling like your body has been stuffed with boulders. Ick. And of course I wasn't the least bit tired. I was just sapped of all energy. I was dreadfully bored, and couldn't do a thing about it.

I'm thinking that I must have overdone it yesterday when I went out with my friend. Maybe it was just too much for my system. Too hot, too much excitement, who knows. I'm hoping it doesn't become a regular occurrence that's all. I'd hate for my illness to get any more in the way of life than it already does.

Just in case anyone actually gets around to reading this post here's an interesting view in to life with a chronic illness/ condition.Celiac sucks, lupus sucks worse. My symptoms some day definitely keep me from doing things. In any case, just read it. It's quite informative: Spoon theory